My last desires

   If there are only 6 months left before the world end, what would I do? 

   When I think deep into this question, I find that all of my plans are self-centered. I realize that there is not much connection between me and other people, except for my family. What I want to do is not sacrifice myself to benefit others, but to live and enjoy every second I have. 

   For the first month, I would continue my regular life. Every morning I will eat a whole bagel full of cream cheese, two pieces of bacon and an egg. Then I will go to class, hang out with friends, watch a movie after school, and write my diary at the end of the day.

    The second month I will go back to Shanghai and stay with my family, go to my favorite restaurant and sit in front of my laptop with fried chicken and coke. It is the time for me to indulge life, release myself, and live in an unhealthy way as I always want to. On normal days, the society tells me to keep fit because it is the trend. But if I only have 6 month to live, I would like to break this rule and live freely without worrying about calories. 

   The third month I will travel. Not all over the world, but stay in China. I want to experience the magnificent view and delicious food in every province, from roasted mutton to shrimp dim sums, the Yellow River to the Great Wall. This country is where I was born from; I should know it well before I die. 

   I will spend the fourth month living in Japan, one of my favorite countries. Not only because I can taste the milk and honey-dew melon of Hokkaido, the sashimi in Sapporo and the beautiful pastry in Tokyo, I want to feel the kindness and peacefulness between people, so that I wouldn’t lose my hope in this most chaotic times. 

  The fifth month I will live alone in a small cottage beside a remote village. Every week I will buy daily necessities and food in the village. There is no communication, no social life; There is only me and nature. I can gaze the stars at night and wonder what life is about. I have never had any great accomplishment and never left any marks in this world. But in the cottage away from civilization, I can speak to myself. 

   The last month I will return home. It is always good to write a book about myself, or film a video about my life. Before I die, I want to leave something that would represent me. Maybe I will dig myself a tomb and customize a great coffin — so when I die I would not be too ugly to look at.