Live in the Moment

Nowadays, everyone lives under the pressure from the society, from the people around us, and even from ourselves. We want to be standing-out from our peers; we want a better self in order to “not be regret when we are old”; we want to let our parents have a better life so that they can enjoy the rest of their lives. Our life is following the way that our society, our parents, or the pressures design for us. We cannot stop it and are afraid to stop it. To keep working is the only way to keep things that you like with you. However, if I know I only have six months to live, I will live for myself, not for others, but myself.
The first thing that I would do is to finish my dream. I want to become a trainee in an entertainment company and get trained with other people who has the same passion as me. I want to spend five months with them, the whole five months. We can practice for days and days, and have fun for nights and nights. Although we might have arguments sometimes, each one of us is fighting for the same goal with our best effort. I will try to learn as much as possible so that I can write as many songs as I want, do as much choreography as I want. After the five-month training, I will spend the last month with my family whether I could debut or not. If I could debut with my group, I will take my family with me so that I could show my work to them on the stage. I will mention them in every interview that I have, and tell them how much I appreciate for their support and how much I love them. If I didn't make it, I will go back to my sweet home and share my works with them on iPad, and tell them how smart they are that found out I could never become a singer. I will tell them how I appreciate for their support when they know I could never make it. I will sing the song that I write for my mom as I promised, and tell her that I’m sorry but I really try my best. Finally, I will have a private conversation with my brother, to tell him that how I appreciate him and I am sorry that I am not a good sister as he expects. He has a long way to go in the future, and I will always wish him the best, and hope he can take place of me to take care of our family. I will tell everyone who I love about how much I love them, and I hope my works can stay in some people’s song or video lists so that they will remember me when they are listening or watching them.